Let it flow
Posted: Friday, July 31, 2009
by By Popular Demand
"as your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that the things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit." That was a quote I heard from my girlfriend. Well not exactly heard, as I received it in a text, which is how I like to do most of my phone communication with her. Anyway that text stemmed from a conversation about me being frustrated with things being in a downward spiral for a significant amount of time now.
It's kinda funny I was always known for never giving up. Even still I get compliments on how strong I was inside, but now all that seems to have gone to the wayside. I spent 25 years...well not 25 I remember. Lets say 12 years, that would put me back at 13 when I had to move away to a different state away from all my friends. That would be about the point my happiness started to fade. A happiness I, for quite some time, would still strive for. The truth is I would have settled for just being content. Infact, I am still willing to settle for some contentment. Its too bad it took 12 years of tire spinning only now to realize that I seem to be going nowhere fast.
The seemingly smart thing to do now would be to just take what life gives me and let its current take me in whatever direction its going. Going against it and putting all my effort into getting nowhere only leads to health problems. Irritation, frustration, inability to sleep, disgust, migranes, drugs and alcohol just to name a few problems. Well more than a few, but you get the idea. I got the idea too. It's easier to just give up, sometimes than it is to keep fighting. Sometimes it's best to just not care. Remember sometimes, only in certain situations. Nothing will get you where you want like hard work.
We all occupy two worlds.
There is reality...real life which all of us live and there is no escape from it. We also live in our heads. That's where it's at. That is where we can have it all; the significant other, the job, house, car, popularity...whatever you want, you name it. In our head, our fantasy, is where we are the person than we think we should, or I guess should have been. Some people lie about their lives, fabricating a bit of their life with their fantasy, while others decide to block out life and put it on hold with drugs and alcohol. Unfortunately there is no escape from life or reality. The more you fight it the harder it fights you back.
I'm not quite convinced that everyone has a predetermined path, as there are way to many screw ups running around. Too many people who are in bad situations due to poor judgment and poor decision making; and there is no way to succeed in anything if you don't try. So saying words like giving up, or not caring may be a little misleading. The idea isn't to give up on life, or your dreams completely, but to learn when to let go of some things. Key word; some. As in something you may want but can't realisticaly have at the time. Not to say you never will, but to realize it may take weeks, months even years before you have it. To let go of some of the aspects from the world in your head that are not going to just happen overnight because you prayed with your fingers crossed. It is some of these things we hold onto and dwell on that get to us as we continue to want, but never begin to work towards it.
The truth is I was quite disgusted because I hadn't learned to let go, flow with life and work towards what I want. I could have sworn that the faith I was supposed to have was in a higher power. The truth is I was supposed to have faith in myself and in what I was doing. Faith in where I was headed. That's what erases the need for control since I will already know what I am doing. This makes quite a bit of sense taking into consideration the inner strength I am said to have and the fact I refuse to give up. The moral is to just flow; flow down you path and stick to working at what you want and you will eventually arrive there.
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